This morning, I woke up around 7:30 and just stayed in bed until about a quarter after 8. After I got up, for whatever reason, I felt like I was on top of the world. Maybe it was a dream I had, maybe I just got enough sleep for once. Whatever it is, I like it.
Yeah, I haven’t updated my rants in a while. I complain about shit all day, and I guess once I get it off of my chest, there’s no reason to bitch about it to the world. But now I think there is a way I can rant without limit. Rant for a cause, I guess. Things like the USA Patriot Act. Things like why Radio Shack sells fans with 20,000 hour MTBFs for $20, and Panasonic sells 70,000 hour MTBF quiet fans with higher airflow for $12. Things that just don’t make any sense in any universe.
Sometimes, I just have to wonder if I’m living in some kind of dream world where things that couldn’t or shouldn’t possibly exist happen with fairly sickening regularity. Maybe I’ve finally snapped and decided to accept it, but smile in spite of it to my very last. Who knows. Is it better to be rationally unhappy in a crazy situation, or irrationally happy? Well, in a sense of stress, I think everyone knows the answer. It doesn’t mean I won’t voice out against the things that bother me, but I won’t let them bother me anymore.
There’s just no reason to let something external to me control my life. If someone is being an asshole, so what? If the US is slowly chipping away at the bill of rights, what can I do about it but try and keep people informed and write to my representatives? Some say don’t sweat the small stuff, but that line’s too thin. I say don’t sweat anything, not even the catastrophic. The way I’ve been bounced around, you’d think I would have come up with that sooner. But the fact of the matter is, nobody can control the big stuff, or the small stuff. So why let any of it affect my personal ambitions, excitement, or future plans?
I figure, like a lot of people, I’ve spent too much time in the past, or planning for the future. After reading Frank Herbert for a while, I can see he head a vision most lack, and I’d like to emulate. People let themselves get defined too much by their society, or bureaucracy, or politics. Hypocrisy is rampant, people play for power, and that may never change, so why let it bother me? I do what I think is right, and do what I can not to hurt anyone else while doing it. That’s all.
So there it is. Maybe a new level of calm that I’ve reached, and the euphoria of it is still strong within me. Whatever it may be, I think I get it now, as I never have before. Fighting the inevitable isn’t worth it. Exploiting the inevitable on the other hand, is a much more constructive way to handle things.
I like that. Exploit the inevitable. That’s my mantra now. And I’ve decided it’s inevitable that I become a famous author. That said, I have some writing to do.